first translation

This is my first time translating a complete song. I posted it in Gendou and amazingly it got accepted and now the editing is locked. haha. So I must have done it right.

Romanization is also by me. hehe

SONO MAMA NO BOKU DE by Eufonius

Konna ni gikochinai bokura
Nani mo kizukanai furi o shiteta keredo
Ano hi mita yasashii sono egao
Kokoro no okude hikatteru

Osanai hi no omoidetachi
Yobiatta namae
Ima mo oboetteru yo
Sunao na mama futari te o tsunagi
Onaji you ni arukitai

Kaze o kitte hashitte yukou
Zutto mae o mitte
Motto hashiru,hashiru, hashiri tsudzukeru
Kimi dake o sagashite

Kaze o kitte hashitte yuku yo
Touku naru mae ni
Subete ushinatte mo
Sono te ni fureru kyori made

Ari no mama no boku o
Hontou no boku o misetai kara

こんなにぎこちない僕ら
何も気付かないフリをしてたけれど
あの日見た優しいその笑顔
心の奥で光ってる

幼い日の想い出達
呼び合った名前
今も覚えてるよ
素直なまま　二人手を繋ぎ
同じように歩きたい

風を切って走って行こう
ずっと前を見て
もっと走る、走る、走り続ける
君だけを探して

風を切って走って行くよ
遠くなる前に
全て失っても
その手に触れる距離まで

ありのままの僕を
本当の僕を見せたいから


Just like this, we are awkward
We pretended to not notice anything, however
That day, I saw that kind smile
In your heart that is shining

Our childish memories of that day
We called each other’s names
I still remember them now!
Sometimes, meekly, we both hold hands
I want to walk with you similarly

I’m going to run, cutting through the wind
As I see straight ahead
I’ll run, run, continue running
Just to search for you

I’m going to run, cutting through the wind
Far ahead
I’ll give up everything
To feel your hand no matter the distance

Because I want to show my real self,
How I am.

phrases with groups

There were two friends
A boy and a girl
They wrote each other letters
They wrote each other's lives

One day they disagreed on something
This thing patience and talking no longer could fix
They stopped talking for days
That turned into weeks
That turned into months
That turned into years

They lived in different worlds each was an alien of
They lost so much time that neither one could go back to

Years after, they met again
Different faces
Different families

They forgot the past
Spoke once more
But that closeness they once had was not the same as before

*Bow*

On Many Things

First off... Yesterday, Sunday, Mother's day, my uncle's brother and his family invited us to go with them to Simala, where there's this famous shrine for the Virgin Mary. We went, and it was a long trip. It was lovely, going there. I got to see the coast, nice view, and it was sunny too. But when we got there, it just started raining. It's annoying. There shouldn't be rain during summer!

So well, why did I go with them to the shrine? One, because I had nothing to do and I've never been there before and I just wanted to check it out. Besides, they brought a mercedez benz van with them, so why not. It was very spacious inside, no transpo hassle to worry about.

So when we got there, it rained. It wasn't as beautiful as I expected. And I didn't like the people, because when we were forming a line to get to the statue of the Virgin Mary, some old women were complaining and arguing and stuff. Sigh, get over it, you're supposed to be inside "holy" grounds. And i was partly annoyed with the security guard who tossed me a sarong because i was "wearing shorts" (i wasn't wearing shorts, i was wearing short pedals, there's a difference). I just stared at him in disbelief. But on further thought, I definitely wouldn't mind covering my head with an orange bandana if I get to go inside a Hindu temple. So I just shrugged that off.

But still, I do feel really distant to my religion right now. I mean, duh, what's with touching Virgin Mary's statue got to do with getting your wishes granted?? Or dipping your fingers in holy water found inside churches or chapels.

Well, I'll just shrug that off too because I'm thinking, hell, even the Hindus bathe in the Ganges... (which is quite polluted too). But anyways, I think I'll have to agree with Sidhartha Gautama about learning to stop being dependent on gods, or any deity, and start working by yourself. Because enlightenment is just within yourself, it's waiting to be discovered. Well, I don't know about the part, but I certainly believe that one should learn to be independent, and stop relying on God for just about everything. Get your ass to work. Stop complaining, stop asking and then blaming God if he didn't grant your wish. You can hope all you want, just get your butt off that couch and start working!

So when we got home I slept from 4pm to 9pm. And had a really looong dream. About Van de Graaff generators that beat like the heart whenever two people who love each other kiss in front of it. And about lots of people dying. And also about a ghost who I'm supposed to know who kept letting me see her. Etc...

So today is my first day as a real trainee at NTW.

My realization

I had a dream like 2 weeks ago. It was a crazy dream. I was talking to my best friend in my apartment. I was told that she was getting married. At the age of 19!! It really annoyed me so much that I said, "Anyways, I don't really care about you. But how did your mom take it?"
She said, " Well, when she found out, then she locked herself in the bathroom for a day. But she's accepted it now because she's already out."

Then I asked, " So, who will be paying for the wedding?"

She said, "Oh, that's all taken care of. I took out a loan at Pagcor (Is this even a loaning agency?=)"

I said in irritation, " Ok, it's your life."

I think that even if I said that I didn't really care, I think I did. But it was so annoying to so many levels because one, I didn't really approve and second, I couldn't do anything to prevent it. I've seen My Best Friend's Wedding and the "preventor" always loses.

My professor in Sociology asked us what the best way was to deal with a daughter who marries a total junkie (guy with tattoos or drinks so much for example). He said that it was just to be happy for them because if you comment negatively, you're creating in-groups and out-groups. It means that it's like you're drawing a circle around yourself and marking your territory saying no one can encroach upon.

But for me, I think that accepting is one of the most difficult things to do. If I was in that situation wherein I didn't like the guy, I wouldn't tell off my daughter but tell off the guy and try to change him into a better person. Maybe at least make him more friendly towards me. I just think I like changing people especially if I care about them so much.

Honestly, if I were to be asked, I wouldn't want to have a daughter because I'd dislike her husband. But if I had a son, I'd dislike the wife....Thinking about it again, maybe guys are more friendly towards women so her hubby might work hard to get my approval first. I just hope that if I had a daughter she wouldn't grow up to be like my aunt who takes her significant other's side blindly.

I just think that I'm protective of my women. When my cousin got a boyfriend, I didn't like him at first but after awhile he became friends with me. When my best friend got a boyfriend, I didn't like him at first but even now I don't like him. What's the difference? It's because my cousin's boyfriend befriended me while my best friend's bf didn't unless forced. Maybe it's like an outsider entering my territory. Are they here to invade or here to take in my culture?
I always hated being a third-wheel but there was only one person I could stand being a third-wheel of. It was Girlie. She asked me to accompany her to SM together with her bf. Even if he barely talked to me, he just kept on smiling and I felt so comfortable. Now, she has a different boyfriend though, but because he jokes around with me so much I like him as well .

My friends are going to Korea (staying there for a month) on July and drop by Japan for a few days. It's going to be so fun. I wish I could have gone too. Because they have to wait for their flight and stay in the airport for a night, they could hang out together. I wish I could do that with my friends too. I'm glad I still have single friends like Karina and Angela. Oh, I don't think they're still friends, too bad. I'm glad that Steph is already single. Wala na akong kaagaw. Now, where does Sherwin fit in? Well, he can come along the next trip. I just enjoy hanging out with girls. Does it make me a misandrist? haha. I wonder. I just now that I love my friends so much.

Why...

So why should I quit?

Because from a reliable source I found out that it seems like the whole female population (including those who are not women but are still interested in men) in the company is eyeing him!

So if I pursue this useless case, it will be me against everyone. Cary said, "can you not take a little competition?" but yrvs, that would be like, the whole ISMT building against me.

AND, although everyone likes him, he doesn't seem interested at dating at all. So it's really useless. And I was right all along, that he's just like Jake. What a shame...